My Current Situation

If there was one thing that he had drummed into himself, it was always to retain the ability to walk away, without sentimentality, from a situation that felt unmanageable. That was the basic rule for survival. Don't lift a finger for a lost cause.
-Stieg Larsson
"The Girl Who Played With Fire"

Twenty-five years ago today:

June 19, 1986
Thursday

I drove in to San Francisco on this usual work day. Near my usual parking lot I noticed a very QBL (Questionably Gay) construction worker. It was an OBV (Obviously Gay) construction worker actually. When he saw me in my suit I felt like he was having a secret fantasy with me. It’s weird when that happens.

My work day went by smoothly. I worked under no real stressors. I am bummed because there are still no openings for Pac Bell Directory Sales. They are only being offered to Pac Bell Directory employees at this point. I don’t seem to have a chance. I plan on continuing to be patient about it.

I received a few comments today about my inflatable globe ornament in my car. It’s the gift that Ron Leoni found for me.

Ron still had no idea where he was going during my last conversation with him.
He simply said, “All I know is that I have to be out of Room 109 by seven o’clock tonight!”

I had lunch with coworkers Margaret, Joshua and Neal at 'B and M Chinese'. On Sunday Margaret is having a small Barbecue at her house. I promised that I will make a brief appearance.

This Saturday will be the wedding of my cousin Sonja Lucero to Craig W Ferry.  This will be her second marriage and she is only twenty-one years old.

I had planned to bike ride after work but I took a nap instead. I didn’t even go to the gym after I woke.  I ate lasagna.

Mike Miller came over to my place and we watched the movie, “THE OUTSIDERS”.
Miller said, “I may go to Vallejo to some club I heard about.”
“Yeah, what’s it called?” I asked.
“It’s the ‘Talk of the Town’.”
I laughed.   “Well, if it’s called the ‘Talk of the Town’ and it really IS the ‘Talk of the Town’ it might be good.”
“Yeah, you should go,” Mike suggested.
I doubt that I will go. My funds are low.


Greg Manachevitz called. Steph Redding called.


I went to bed at 11PM. I didn’t do much exercise but Friday will be make-up day.


Mom has the day off tomorrow.


I was considering the move to New York but the idea is not profitable enough in comparison to my current situation.  If I get an offer that I just can’t refuse it could be another story.


I need to make time to write to Paloma. I will wait until my pictures are developed, then I can send her one.

"So, here is the game we are going to play:  You have exactly fifteen days, starting tomorrow morning at six a.m., to discover who I am."
-John Katzenbach
"The Analyst"